im so exhausted with life
another sad post! boohoo! im a little baby who cries and is never happy!!! today my close friend showed another one of my friends a (now unpublished..) blog post of mine and it really really hurt my feelings!!! the only way i can get myself to write in this little digital journal is knowing none of my real life friends, besides the one i allow to, will never ever see it! i dont even know if i want to blog anymore because of it. yes it IS that serious! im really bothered by this!!! im so tired. im so tired of all of this! day after day, im reminded of how my girlfriend hates me, my friends hate me, my family hates me, and its made me realize i am not truly loved by anyone on this earth.. what have i ever done to deserve all of this?! all i do is code and play games all day, why am i subjected to the worst life imaginable, while the most evil humans on the planet get to live carefree. i just wish i could close my eyes and never have to wake up again.